My Dearest Anon,
I’m sorry that you are hurting right now. I feel your pain. I wish I could give you an exact date, time, and place as to when you’ll stop hurting, but I can’t. It may be tomorrow. It may be two months from now. What I can promise you, though, is that you will stop hurting at some point.
Dealing with loneliness is a difficult thing to do. I struggle with it more often than I’d care to admit. I’ve started to try and embrace it. I like to listen to music that conveys how I’m feeling, and journaling out my thoughts. As a result, I’ve begun to become more comfortable in my own skin, and gained back some self confidence that I lost along the way. That may not work for you, but try and find some sort of outlet to express yourself and how you feel.
I don’t know the whole story, but it sounds like there would have been zero benefits from trying to keep a friendship going. There are toxic people in this world, and sometimes you don’t realize they are until later on. You’ve dodged a bullet. You might not believe it now, but you will sooner or later.
There are some days where my heart aches because I miss The Boy, and I want to call him so very badly. Then there are days where he’s just merely a passing thought. You will have your great days and your horrible days. As hard as it is, don’t let the horrible days keep you down. Remember that a great day is up ahead.
To quote a line from one of my favorite movies, Her (Fantastic film. Seriously. Watch it if you haven’t. Brilliant acting, writing, and music), “We are only here briefly, and in this moment I want to allow myself joy.”
This person is no longer a source of joy to you. Don’t allow them to take away your ability to feel that. You deserve better.
Doesn’t look like a limerick to you? Try this:
A dozen, a gross, and a score
Plus three times the square root of four
Divided by seven
Plus five times eleven
Is nine squared and not a bit more.
THE FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCCCKKKKKKK
do you ever go through those phases where you just don’t feel like talking to anyone for a few days and it’s not because you’re mad or anything you just don’t feel like talking???
i got 99 problems and probably about 94 of them come from my lack of motivation to do anything
what others call a rebellious phase I call the sudden realization I don’t deserve to be treated like garabge
IT HAS BEEN SAID